If you personally know me then you know that I love to talk. Although on first glance I may appear shy, once I feel safe I will excitably begin to babble on about whatever is on my mind. Often, I’ll excitedly jump from one subject to another in a way that will quickly leave the listener with conversational whiplash. As a child my twin sister, Chantal, and I were no different. In fact we were so notorious for this that my parents actually had to tell both of us that we couldn’t talk at the dinner table for at least a few minutes so that our older brother could have an opportunity to talk. Our poor brother was always out numbered two to one. 

One of the underlying reasons for this rapid fire chattering was that I was always so excited to tell my parents about what happened in my day. I wanted to speak about the events of the day as quick as possible with the hope that I could beat Chantal to it. However, on the off chance Chantal did beat me, I would half listen as I would think about what I could say next and where I could cut into the conversation. 

Now that I am older I have seen this same childlike tendency in my life when speaking to my Heavenly Father. 

Many times, but especially when I feel like I am overly busy, I can find myself back to my old habits. I excitably and hastily pray; I ask God for what I need and run rapid fire through a list of needs for others. Then I say amen and move on with my day. Completely oblivious, once again, that this was supposed to be a two-way conversation. 

Unfortunately it is easy to make prayer an impersonal and habitual “must do” before meals and before going to bed. However, when we do this we lose the intimacy of talking to our Heavenly Father with vulnerability, where we can learn and feel this indescribable unconditional love that can only be experienced in relationship with Him. We get lost on this path of automatic prayers because we forget the ultimate comfort, honest love, and absolute truth that we can receive when we pray and listen to the One who knows us both inside and out. 

When we do this, it saddens our Heavenly Father for He craves for us to spend time with Him not because we feel obligated to but because we love spending time with Him.  It doesn’t matter what we have done in the past or the issues we are struggling with today, He knows not only the good in our lives but also the things we try to hide from everyone; yet, He still longs for a relationship with us.  

The thing is we often want that too when we are amidst deep pain, difficult decisions, or anxious thoughts. When we are experiencing these things we desire much more than a one-way conversation. 

Personally when these things are happening, I crave God’s comfort and words of guidance. So, I make the decision to prioritize my prayer life and take the time to not only speak but also to listen. But I want more than this. I don’t want to have an active and intimate prayer life only when I am in the pit, stuck in the darkness of uncertainties.

I desire this to be the reality that I live in each and every day of my life.  I want to wake up excited to speak to my Heavenly Father and then to be just as anxious to hear His response. But it doesn’t stop there. Throughout the day, I want to continue to humbly come before God with a prayerful spirit. 

Trust me, just like you I know that it can be difficult to do this especially with all of the distractions around us. But we cannot allow that to be our excuse for not giving God our best and that includes our prayer life. 

So, in light of all of this, right now I implore you to stop what you’re doing and pray. Pray for the state our world is in. Pray for the first responders in this fight against Covid-19. Pray for your family. Pray for your life. And please, above all pray that you will know Christ more intimately than ever; that you will long for Him and delight in Him like never before. Then be still and listen. I am confident that if you really want to hear from Him, you will. 

 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7

I am listening
Waiting for your voice
To point me somewhere
Giving me purpose
A higher calling
Something I can’t do
By my strength alone
 
You are listening 
Waiting for my voice
To cease and listen 
For the words you give
Telling me to wait
Trust in you fully
Continue to pray
 
-Written February 22, 2018 by Chérie Wilson